One thing I've realized about myself is that all my stars are in their right place. Astrology is an interest I recently picked up from my father. I found some old books that he's had in storage since about the early 80's. Everything from Astrology and dreams, to extraterrestial life and psychic powers. I never really thought of the old man as being young once; with a young mind and thirst for knowledge. Not just knowledge, but pretty much everything in the world. I was born May 8, a Taurus. I could have been born on any day really, but somehow May 8 would be my day; 2 months premature, I don't think of it as just a coincidence. I was born very ill, with not much of a chance to live, but somehow I made it through that night of May 8. 5 and 8 are considered to be among the luckiest of numbers in Eastern culture and philosophy afterall. Almost 19 years later, not much has changed, and my stars are still unbelievably accurate. Just now I came across this big headline in the aol news with a picture and everything, about how the full moon tonight is supposed to have a great affect on the stars. It reads like this.
"The Scorpio/Taurus Full Moon, of which we will start to feel the effects on the evening of April 27, is a powder keg, triggering strong emotions. Tempers could flare as the Sun and Moon trigger stubborn Mercury in Taurus and feisty Mars in Leo. Words carry tremendous power now to heal or hurt, unite or divide. Impatience is likely, and impulsive purchases, flirtations or jealousy can get you in hot water. Keep a cool head at this Full Moon, and find a healthy outlet for your passions. What might that look like for you?
Taurus (April 20 - May 20)
A family matter or domestic improvement could trigger a heated debate between you and a partner at this Full Moon, Taurus. Your famous stubbornness is less effective now than your equally famous charm, as you're called upon to be the voice of reason and calm someone's fears -- especially those of a financial or sexual nature. The key is to join forces rather than work against each other -- doing so will reap magical results over time."
I was stubborn today, and I did have a heated debate as the horoscope says. Then I laughed about the part where it talks about my "charm". Then I realized that it's not so crazy to think that maybe I do have some charm. If not charm, I do radiate some sort of comfort and ease for other people.
I stayed in school late today, and by the time I left, the sun was beginning to set. As I walked out of the building, I heard my name. I turned to see an old friend I had not talked to in over a year. Like most people do, we caught up on things, and ended up talking for about a little over an hour. We talked about several things, mostly things about his new life after high school. The thing about men is that we don't really like to ask for advice. The tone in his voice gave me the impression that he was unsure about his new life. So I offered my advice, not up front, but in a way that he could still keep his pride and still know what to do. By the end of our conversation he seemed more confident in the next steps he wanted to take. I know I helped him, but I didn't think too much of it. Later I logged on to myspace, and found four new messages from four girls I had not talked to in a while. They started with "Hey how have you been?", and then some ended up asking me for very personal advice, and some confessed they just needed someone to talk to. One told me that I have always known what to say. I didn't think too much of that either. No less than an hour ago, I received a phone call from someone in need of comfort, and although I hesitated to do so at first, I put her life and feelings in front of my own. Maybe it was my irresistible charm provided by the full moon of august 27/28. Or maybe it wasn't. I do know however, that I will be hearing from her again, and I'm somewhat looking forward to it. Then right after, I came across that article on the horoscopes affected by the full moon tonight. Everything just always seems to fall in its right place for me.
Astrology is just something I'm interested in and nothing more. I'll never know if my good luck and accurate horoscopes are just a mere coincidence. I've been told several times that I have all the qualities for success and leadership. Some psychic lady came up to me once and said that I would have a major influence in this world. She didn't want any money, she just thought that she should let me know. I thought she was crazy. I was 16. It's almost May 8 once again, and I'll be 19 this year. About the same age as my father when he was into Astrology. He told me the other day about his life when he was my age. I don’t think he ever got to live out his dreams, however I know he’s very content with his family. But I’m not the type to settle without having what I want. I’m stubborn like the bull after all. I didn’t give up on that day I could have died, and I won’t give up now either. I was brought to this world with every chance to excel, and I have done so my whole life and that is what I plan on doing. I don’t take astrology very serious, however it’s nice to think all your stars are in the right place. The stars given to me on 5, 8 have always told me to go out and get what I want. The world is there for the taking, I might as well.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Hitchhikers
Today I spotted some hitchikers as I was driving. I don't know what came over me when I saw them, but I decided I was going to pick them up. It was a man and a woman who waved at the cars passing them by. They looked like decent people, the type that would only hitchike because they got stranded on the road. I thought about how if I ever got stranded, I'd like someone to pick me up. This could probably get me some good karma points. I pulled over next to them, and I asked them where they were going.
Woman-San Diego
Me- I'm going into town so I could only take you about 15 miles in that direction.
Man- I'ts better than walking
I got out of my car to open the trunk. They had huge backpacks, like the ones you see people take on camping trips, the ones that are really serious about camping.
Woman-Will they fit
They had funny accents. Something clicked in my head. You know how Americans like to tell about how they backpacked all across Europe blah blah blah. Well here were two Europeans backpacking across the United States. I felt sorry for them. Somehow they ended up in Yuma, and I felt sorry for them.
Me- Yea they'll fit, just take the smaller bags up in the front and leave these back here.
The man did all the work, I just held the trunk door open. They looked like they were in there early twenties. The woman wore green sweat pants, sandals, and a white tanktop. She had red hair that she tied back into a pony tail, and small freckles only on her nose. There were beads of precipitation around her red face. She probably lived nowhere near a desert. The man wore faded blue jeans and some old looking cowboy boots. The sleeves on his white button shirt were rolled up and his collar was open exposing his bare chest. His dirtyblond hair was longer than the woman's, also in a pony tail. He had a goatee and sideburns. Both good looking people.
I got in the car, and so did they along with some smaller luggage they were carrying. The man got in the car first so he could go sit in the back, so the woman would be sitting up front with me. I drove off.
Woman- Nice car.
Me-Thanks
Woman- What do you do?
Me-Nothing really
Woman-Nothing? Then why do you have such a cool car?
Me-My parents bought it for me.
Man-Yea our parents aren't like that.
Me-You guys are siblings
Woman- No were a couple, we actually just met not that long ago.
Me-Where are you from?
Woman-He's from France, and I'm from Norway. We met in England,both visiting there last week, and when he told me he was going to travel here, I couldn't let him come alone.
She smiled and told me this little story with such enthusiasm. The man was mostly quiet, you could tell he was more of the quiet type, where as she loved to talk.
Me-How Sweet
I hope I didn't offend them with my tone. The thought of them living this cliche made me sick to my stomach
Woman-So you don't do anything? nothing? Your just spoiled with nice cars for no reason.
Me-Yea, I'm taking a little break right now. Well I'm going to college right now, but Im leaving here in a few months and probably won't finish school anyways.
Man-What are you studying.
Me-English I guess, but really, I'm undecided.
Woman-Why English?
Me-I don't know, Its easy for me. I've always been an A student in English. Actually I'm an A student in all subjects, but with English, its like I don't even have to try.
Woman- Oh, smart guy. So thats why your parents spoil you. They have bigh hopes for you.
Me- I guess, but like I said. I probably won't finish college.
Woman- Why not if your so smart?
Me- I don't like it.
Woman-How old are you? You don't look old enough to be going to college.
Me-18
Woman-You look younger. But you should never do anything you don't like.
I already knew this. The man was in the back looking at a map.
Me-How did you end up Yuma?
Man-We just came from the Grand Canyon. We're on the right way to San Diego aren't we?
Me-Yea. If you just keep going on this freeway you'll end up in San Diego eventually.
Man-How long will it take to get there.
Me-Like 2 and a half hours, it depends. Your in the right direction though.
Woman- Look he has the world in his car. It's a little messed up though.
She picked up the half inflated globe that was for my oceanography class and began to play with it.
Woman-This is where I'm from.
She pointed on the globe.
Me- So how is it that you'r on your way to San Diego.
Woman-Well I came with him, and we just wanted to see America. He has a friend living in San Diego and we are going to stay with him until our visas expire in two weeks. Have you ever been to California?
Me-I lived half of my life over there.
Woman-How is it?
Me-It's alot better than here. San Jose is the only place I would live in though. Besides that I wouldn't live there.
Woman- Why not?
Me- I went to Oregon once, to a little town right by the coast of the ocean. I liked it so much, I decided I would live there someday. California is nice, especially up north, its just that I happened to like this little town in Oregon better.
Woman-Well I hope that you get what you want someday.
This woman made me feel comfortable, I usually don't ever talk as much as I did with her. Probably because I knew I would never see her again.
Me- I have to get off at this exit. Should I drop you off in town, there's a gas station right there. Most of the people that stop there will be goin to El Centro which is the right direction you want to be goin in.
Man-Right here is fine. We will wait under the bridge. Someone will stop eventually.
Me-Ok
I pulled over and we got out of the car. Again I held the trunk door open and the man took out the luggage. The woman put on her backpack and gave me a bye and thank you, and began to walk underneath the bridge.
Woman-C'mon baby.
The man took longer to put on his backpack and stayed behind with me.
Me- Are you sure you'll be alright here?
Man-Yes someone will stop for us. We can't really afford to pay for a bus ticket or anything, we are living off of five dollars a day, and thats only on food for the both of us.
Me-You like travelling this way?
Man- Sure, the people that have picked me up have always been nice. Its interesting to meet people this way.
Me- I wouldn't know anything about it. I don't even like being in another car besides my own.
He got his things on his back. Then he shook my hand.
Man-You know what? You should travel the across the United States someday. Ther are a lot of things to see. I won't be able to see them all but you should. And then you should travel the rest of the world, I think you would like it. You seem like you would really enjoy it.
Me- Yea I would. Maybe the rest of the world. But the United States doesn't sound so interesting. What is there to look at.
The woman was underneath the bridge waving at him. He began to walk away while at the same time still talking.
Man-Theres lots of things to see. Go see all of the national parks.
Me-Like which ones?
Man-Have you been to the Grand Canyon?
Me- Nope, never.
Man-Start there, then you'll know where you want to go next.
I began to walk towards my door.
Me-Yea maybe, Someday.
I got in my car.
Man-You already don't like what you are doing. You have nothing to lose. Thank you. Good luck on your travels, if you ever do decide to.
Me-Yea you to.
I drove off. I'll never see these people again, yet I don't think I will ever forget them.
Woman-San Diego
Me- I'm going into town so I could only take you about 15 miles in that direction.
Man- I'ts better than walking
I got out of my car to open the trunk. They had huge backpacks, like the ones you see people take on camping trips, the ones that are really serious about camping.
Woman-Will they fit
They had funny accents. Something clicked in my head. You know how Americans like to tell about how they backpacked all across Europe blah blah blah. Well here were two Europeans backpacking across the United States. I felt sorry for them. Somehow they ended up in Yuma, and I felt sorry for them.
Me- Yea they'll fit, just take the smaller bags up in the front and leave these back here.
The man did all the work, I just held the trunk door open. They looked like they were in there early twenties. The woman wore green sweat pants, sandals, and a white tanktop. She had red hair that she tied back into a pony tail, and small freckles only on her nose. There were beads of precipitation around her red face. She probably lived nowhere near a desert. The man wore faded blue jeans and some old looking cowboy boots. The sleeves on his white button shirt were rolled up and his collar was open exposing his bare chest. His dirtyblond hair was longer than the woman's, also in a pony tail. He had a goatee and sideburns. Both good looking people.
I got in the car, and so did they along with some smaller luggage they were carrying. The man got in the car first so he could go sit in the back, so the woman would be sitting up front with me. I drove off.
Woman- Nice car.
Me-Thanks
Woman- What do you do?
Me-Nothing really
Woman-Nothing? Then why do you have such a cool car?
Me-My parents bought it for me.
Man-Yea our parents aren't like that.
Me-You guys are siblings
Woman- No were a couple, we actually just met not that long ago.
Me-Where are you from?
Woman-He's from France, and I'm from Norway. We met in England,both visiting there last week, and when he told me he was going to travel here, I couldn't let him come alone.
She smiled and told me this little story with such enthusiasm. The man was mostly quiet, you could tell he was more of the quiet type, where as she loved to talk.
Me-How Sweet
I hope I didn't offend them with my tone. The thought of them living this cliche made me sick to my stomach
Woman-So you don't do anything? nothing? Your just spoiled with nice cars for no reason.
Me-Yea, I'm taking a little break right now. Well I'm going to college right now, but Im leaving here in a few months and probably won't finish school anyways.
Man-What are you studying.
Me-English I guess, but really, I'm undecided.
Woman-Why English?
Me-I don't know, Its easy for me. I've always been an A student in English. Actually I'm an A student in all subjects, but with English, its like I don't even have to try.
Woman- Oh, smart guy. So thats why your parents spoil you. They have bigh hopes for you.
Me- I guess, but like I said. I probably won't finish college.
Woman- Why not if your so smart?
Me- I don't like it.
Woman-How old are you? You don't look old enough to be going to college.
Me-18
Woman-You look younger. But you should never do anything you don't like.
I already knew this. The man was in the back looking at a map.
Me-How did you end up Yuma?
Man-We just came from the Grand Canyon. We're on the right way to San Diego aren't we?
Me-Yea. If you just keep going on this freeway you'll end up in San Diego eventually.
Man-How long will it take to get there.
Me-Like 2 and a half hours, it depends. Your in the right direction though.
Woman- Look he has the world in his car. It's a little messed up though.
She picked up the half inflated globe that was for my oceanography class and began to play with it.
Woman-This is where I'm from.
She pointed on the globe.
Me- So how is it that you'r on your way to San Diego.
Woman-Well I came with him, and we just wanted to see America. He has a friend living in San Diego and we are going to stay with him until our visas expire in two weeks. Have you ever been to California?
Me-I lived half of my life over there.
Woman-How is it?
Me-It's alot better than here. San Jose is the only place I would live in though. Besides that I wouldn't live there.
Woman- Why not?
Me- I went to Oregon once, to a little town right by the coast of the ocean. I liked it so much, I decided I would live there someday. California is nice, especially up north, its just that I happened to like this little town in Oregon better.
Woman-Well I hope that you get what you want someday.
This woman made me feel comfortable, I usually don't ever talk as much as I did with her. Probably because I knew I would never see her again.
Me- I have to get off at this exit. Should I drop you off in town, there's a gas station right there. Most of the people that stop there will be goin to El Centro which is the right direction you want to be goin in.
Man-Right here is fine. We will wait under the bridge. Someone will stop eventually.
Me-Ok
I pulled over and we got out of the car. Again I held the trunk door open and the man took out the luggage. The woman put on her backpack and gave me a bye and thank you, and began to walk underneath the bridge.
Woman-C'mon baby.
The man took longer to put on his backpack and stayed behind with me.
Me- Are you sure you'll be alright here?
Man-Yes someone will stop for us. We can't really afford to pay for a bus ticket or anything, we are living off of five dollars a day, and thats only on food for the both of us.
Me-You like travelling this way?
Man- Sure, the people that have picked me up have always been nice. Its interesting to meet people this way.
Me- I wouldn't know anything about it. I don't even like being in another car besides my own.
He got his things on his back. Then he shook my hand.
Man-You know what? You should travel the across the United States someday. Ther are a lot of things to see. I won't be able to see them all but you should. And then you should travel the rest of the world, I think you would like it. You seem like you would really enjoy it.
Me- Yea I would. Maybe the rest of the world. But the United States doesn't sound so interesting. What is there to look at.
The woman was underneath the bridge waving at him. He began to walk away while at the same time still talking.
Man-Theres lots of things to see. Go see all of the national parks.
Me-Like which ones?
Man-Have you been to the Grand Canyon?
Me- Nope, never.
Man-Start there, then you'll know where you want to go next.
I began to walk towards my door.
Me-Yea maybe, Someday.
I got in my car.
Man-You already don't like what you are doing. You have nothing to lose. Thank you. Good luck on your travels, if you ever do decide to.
Me-Yea you to.
I drove off. I'll never see these people again, yet I don't think I will ever forget them.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I'd like to think I'm not self centered
I stopped by a store today. Once I was at the register, I set down my items. I was thinking about how hot Jennifer Aniston used to be when she was still on Friends. She was on the cover of some magazine, and I began to remember how I had a crush on her when I was a kid, and would watch Friends just to see her. I never really got the jokes in that show until I was older, but really I just wanted to see Jennifer Aniston. I've seen every episode about five times. Lost in thought, and completely unaware of anything besides Jennifer Aniston, I heard "Hey Bryan". It was the cashier. Sometimes I forget they exist and simply set my things down on the conveyor belt and let it do it's thing. Most of the time I don't even look at their faces when I give them my money. However, I always leave with a "thank you" and smile, as I've grown acustomed to do so, but don't really mean. I knew this cashier from somewhere, but I couldn't remember, I don't think I even tried to remember. I was just surprised to hear my name. I said "Hey, dude" since I couldn't remember his name, or who he even was. But it began coming to me, I knew him from my senior year in high school, I must have sat next to him in some class. I still couldn't remember his name or any conversation we might have had. This didn't surprise me, I forget most people within hours. I'm very self centered. "Did they ever call you back from Taco Bell?" he asked me. Who the hell was this guy! I applied for a job at Taco Bell a few months ago, and I'm pretty sure that I hadn't seen this guy since high school, how did he know about me applying there. I don't remember ever telling anyone about Taco Bell except for some girl I used to talk to a few months ago. "No....well they did, but I didn't get the job, it was for an interview, then I had a second interview but I never heard from them after that." I rambled because I was thinking about how self centered I must be to not remember this person. An example of my self centeredism would be how I was thinking about how self centred I was rather than remember who this person was. I think we exchanged about three more sentences, before I came to the conclusion that I am very self centered when it comes to guys and unatractive girls. I decided I would change in that moment, I wouldn't be so self centered anymore. So I asked him "So how have you been?"
"Good"
"So are you going to AWC?"
"NO I'm not going to school, I'm trying to save up some money so I could move to California." I heard a voice laughing in my head and saying "I don't care". I wanted to laugh. I managed to hold back and say "That's cool".He gave me my change. "Later Bryan" he said.
"Later dude" I said. I walked out of the store thinking about how I'm such a nice person and how I have so much to offer people.
"Good"
"So are you going to AWC?"
"NO I'm not going to school, I'm trying to save up some money so I could move to California." I heard a voice laughing in my head and saying "I don't care". I wanted to laugh. I managed to hold back and say "That's cool".He gave me my change. "Later Bryan" he said.
"Later dude" I said. I walked out of the store thinking about how I'm such a nice person and how I have so much to offer people.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Sleepy Cleaner
I'm sleepy, and I think I'm only a few minutes away from crashing out, so this might not make a whole lot of sense. I ended up procrastinating again today, I guess I'll do my homework tomorrow. Instead I've been cleaning my room all day, it's taken me about six hours and I still have not finished cleaning everything. It started when I tripped over some textbooks on my floor. This wasn't the first time, and everytime after the first time angered me more and more. After I finished cursing at the books, I decided I would try and organize them somewhere.
I have a pretty wide closet, with two doors that slide to open it. On each side in the inside of the closet I have book shelves that stretch from the floor to the roof. To the left, I have my personal books, magazines, notebooks, dvd's, sketchpads, and pictures. I didn't organize anything on these shelves because everything would get unorganized withing a day. I'm always taking stuff from there, only to be tossed back in an unorderly fashion later. To the right, theres random things that have piled up over the years. I never go back to these shelves, but I occasionally find myself putting things there. Things that I don't think Ill ever need again, but don't know if I should throw away.
I could have just thrown everything away, because I did end up throwing everything away anyway. But Everything I took out of there, I examined closely, and tried to remember how that particular item had come into my life. First it was the shelves in my closet, then my cabinets (which I have many of). It was kind of weird, like looking into my past, remembering things that I wouldn't normally remember.
It seemes like a wasted a whole day, but I kind of enjoyed it. I remembered things from my childhood, all the way through the end of high school. So far everything I've taken out, I've thrown away or set aside for donation. I really don't see anymore use for this junk.
It only took me FOUR minutes to write all this, not bad for my first post. :)
I have a pretty wide closet, with two doors that slide to open it. On each side in the inside of the closet I have book shelves that stretch from the floor to the roof. To the left, I have my personal books, magazines, notebooks, dvd's, sketchpads, and pictures. I didn't organize anything on these shelves because everything would get unorganized withing a day. I'm always taking stuff from there, only to be tossed back in an unorderly fashion later. To the right, theres random things that have piled up over the years. I never go back to these shelves, but I occasionally find myself putting things there. Things that I don't think Ill ever need again, but don't know if I should throw away.
I could have just thrown everything away, because I did end up throwing everything away anyway. But Everything I took out of there, I examined closely, and tried to remember how that particular item had come into my life. First it was the shelves in my closet, then my cabinets (which I have many of). It was kind of weird, like looking into my past, remembering things that I wouldn't normally remember.
It seemes like a wasted a whole day, but I kind of enjoyed it. I remembered things from my childhood, all the way through the end of high school. So far everything I've taken out, I've thrown away or set aside for donation. I really don't see anymore use for this junk.
It only took me FOUR minutes to write all this, not bad for my first post. :)
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